Obsessions

Ladies and gentlemen. 

This, is the reason I am still alive.

And where humanity proves it's existence.

Top left to right: Gianmarco Lorenzi Multicolor. Gianmarco Lorenzi Bling Bling. Christian Louboutin Gold Studded. Ferragamo Red Classic Pump. Christian Louboutin Yellow Sexy Stiletto. YSL Tribute in Red. Alexander McQueen Armadillo. Christian Louboutin Patent Nude Pumps. Miu Miu Triple Bow Flats. YSL Tribute Suade Heels in Hot Fuchsia. Glitter Christian Louboutin. Patent Yellow Sky High Christian Louboutin Pumps. Classic Slingback Christian Louboutin. YSL Tribute in Maroon. Balenciaga Lego-like Sandals. Prada Tweet Bow Flats. Louis Vuitton Spicy Sandals. Christian Louboutin Multicolor Slingback. Sweet Miu Miu Flats with Ruffle Bow. Gianmarco Lorenzi Gold Slingback.  - All photos from Google.

 As you can see. I am good as crazy. In my eyes there is only one shoe in this picture that does not make sense but I still LOVE them all. I will work my ass off to own this babies. 

Feel free to buy me a pair =)

I find no purpose with wearing heels that has no lifting at the front, so I settled with mostly 1 inch at the front to the benefit of my height. A 5' 2" like me could use a good inches or two!

A girl can never have never shoes, so tell me what's your fav!

If you were an ice cream flavor, you would be my favourite one.

Was listening to Mindy Gledhill's All About You the whole day, I was brought back to so many emotions the past years. The song was sang romantically, softly and gently reminded me of the days when I was a kid,  the time I first learnt drawings, the times I argued with my mum, the time I got hurt by a boy, and the time I fell in love again. It connects so well, I just lay on the bed, close my eyes... and let the song bring me back in time.

Romantically captured by www.ohweddings.net

Have you ever think back to the times you used to think of the future, then reflect the reality of what really happens. I used to think a lot about the specific years ahead when I was younger; for example, when I was 16 years old I would think when I'm 18 what would I be doing. When I was 18 I thought what would I be doing at 21. Lets just put it in a way that things did not turn out to be what was dreamed of shall we?

Despite the less ideal outcome I can say I have enjoyed the years very much and with no some regrets. That's part of growing up is it not. As of now, I'm very grateful of what I have. A family that guides and support me, a great bunch of crazy friends, a loving boyfriend and his wonderful family, opportunities that may lead my way to a great career, and overall a great environment to grow and explore myself. 

I have been waiting for my job application to give me a notice anytime this week or next week. Been extremely anxious, agitated even sometime. I wonder what would happen to me if I didn't pass through this round where I have placed all my eggs in a basket. That's the thing with me, little patient with too much expectation. When times like this surfaces, I will dig out the worse in me then whine over and over about it. Just like when I see a beautiful dress, I'd put it on and try my very best to look out for the imperfection 'Oh it's making my boobs non-existent!' 'The color makes me look like a zombie'. 

Girls, deserve some slaps some day. 

Convocation is set on the 20th May! Excited much! I'm thinking of what to wear already. That is however not my biggest fear. The time I am sure a lot of them are already working for months already, I could be still working my way to look for a job. It's desperado momento honestly. Would they be 'Haven't you got a job yet? ZOMFG still bumming in Pavilion taking photographs of food?'. Deep sigh. 

Funny how people thinks I am so super sometimes but truthfully I do have my downtimes and suffers from major self-esteem breakdown occasionally. 

Alvin is returning from Shanghai this coming 11th April! I know it's 3 months ahead of schedule but he is coming back for good. Who would have expected things to turn out unfavorably, but this is life. Regardless, all of us (especially ME!) is going to welcome him back with a warm embrace, poor thing suffers loneliness and boredom overseas all by himself. 

I'm having a mini project in hand that I wish to complete before I start working, so I will be heading home tomorrow. Gosh I don't want to think about if the company from Singapore calls me up tomorrow when I'm on my way back! 

Till then, toodles. Have a great weekend ahead. xoxo.

p/s: you must, MUST listen to the song. Click here to fall in love.

The Waiting Game

Without me noticing it's been a week plus since I been here in Singapore to attend my job interview. Spent time out almost everyday until recently because my legs are so sore from walking. It was great because I got to meet up with a lot of them, fruitful trip indeed!

Beautifully captured by The-Silver-Doe

Reason why I am still stuck in Singapore is because I am still waiting for one of the company to get back to me. So basically I will have to stay here waiting until further notice, which I am anxiously waiting everyday. Hopefully everything goes well. I really hope to start this coming April. 

This afternoon was slightly unusual for my conversation with Alvin was about holidays in Bali and buying our first apartment in Ampang. We talked about how we are going to decorate the house, which floor it should be at and the sexy red couch. It was something I find deeply comforting and promising about our future together despite being in a long distance relationship now. We wait patiently till the day we meet again A lot of people asked me was it not difficult? Of course it is, not a doubt. It will always be difficult, but it really shows you how much you want to be with that person because you are investing all your heart and soul in something you can't touch and can't see physically. Could be very discouraging at times, however always bring yourself back to where you started, make the most out of it.

Today, something really big struck me, this person doesn't know me but I feel for her deeply for her separation from her husband. She is a strong, independent young lady, I know she'll make through it. Being a follower for about 5 years now, I hope I could give her a big hug. An inspiration to a lot of young girls, she is on the right path so long she is happy, she still holds the world in her hands. It saddens me how it happened so quickly and without noticing everything reduced to dust.

As of now, I'm waiting for the clock to strike 12am to wish my love Happy 1 Year and 2 months!

thou shall not waste thou youth...

Yesterday morning my alarm went off diligently at 10.23am, I casually dismissed it and went back to slumber. With my eyes closed, i thought of "I should not waste my youth" - my eyes opened right away. I couldn't really go back to bed after. Truthfully, we have heard the philosophers, our elders, friends, Facebook memes, or even strangers telling us Youth is something we should appreciate the most. For time travels in one direction, once you missed it, you're never getting it back.

That got me thinking for a while more.. Because I have been 'wasting' my youth as I am speaking. I sleep the sunrise off, lunch is first meal, only productivity was in front of the computer looking for jobs, and spend the rest of the night in front of the computer as well. Problem lies where I can't bring myself to wake up in the morning, and go for a walk around my neighborhood because it is dangerous - I felt like I'm indeed making too damn many excuses.

I'm working on it! Will definitely attempt to wake up tomorrow, sleep early, and embrace my youth by doing something worth remembering. Perhaps to look for a part time job while waiting for response for my official online application. 

Starting to sort of stuff that I will sell online. Some of them never worn, some of them never used, but mostly pre-loved items that I will consolidate and put them on my bloggy soon. 

Designing the website, or blog (I haven't got them figured out yet, need some lesson for HTML) of my personal little project. I'm still doing a little homework about the feasibility of it coming true, although it might not be the next mega project, hopefully it'll turn out successful as well. A total girly site! Stay tune! 

Valentine's is coming! In another 4 days, lovers around the world will celebrate love. Not only meant for lovers, family and friends too, could use this day as an excuse to tell how much they love each other. How would you celebrate yours? My Valentine is all the way in Shanghai, we have exchanged gift, both yet to receive. I do not want anything but to hold him close again, why the flowers and chocolate if he is everything right? However, I am very thankful and excited for what we were, what we are and what we will be. I think being in a relationship just opens up so many corners in your heart that you never noticed of its humble existence until you are loved, hurt, cried, recovered and learn to love again. That to me, is absolutely beautiful. I used to prized my single hood with pride, but now being with him has changed a lot to what I am today. For those who are single, or hurt, or waiting for someone - do not give up! Love is there, just lost it's way looking for you. 

Till then, Happy Valentines to all. Have a great celebration, and spread some love. 

Beni Arashiro

BENI ARASHIRO. I have been listening to her for almost a year and a half. Not to brag but I believe she is the best vocalist in Japan, talk about live performace - she has never failed to deliver. I have always respect singers that sound not too far from their recordings, but Beni has always sounded better live. Not to mention she's so pretty I wish I have half her face, but sometimes you have to give in that such beauty was only given to some people.  

Sadly Beni is not as famous as mainstream pop and RnB artist like Hamasaki or Nakashima or even Amuro. However I believe she is relatively young and new in the industry as compared to the J-Queens that has dominated the market for a long time. 

Her latest album Fortune, is a little different compared to her previous one. It has more ballad and slightly mellow compared to her other albums. Nonetheless, it's still an album worth listening. My favourite song so far is Darlin' and Unmei No Hito (A Person of Fate).

A true inspiration and artist, I love you Beni!